I was watching the scene in Jackie Brown where Samuel L. Jackson goes into the cocktail lounge and I noticed how naturally lit it seemed.
When I think of how often I see badly lit bar scenes and mentally compare them to this one it hit me...
I have to give myself over to the film side of my brain. SURRENDER to the baby's needs.
The film you're making is like a baby because it needs you to do everything for it. It can be anything you want it to be if you do your job right. But at a certain point it takes on a life of it's own.
I better understand now that if I don't completely control the lighting (if I try to use available light indoors I'm just adding another variable and I NOW understand why some lighting guys just mask off windows when shooting interiors)...control ALL the lighting...it's like I'm feeding the baby SOME good food and SOME junk food and the rest of the time just letting the baby eat paint peeling off the wall or newspaper it happens to find strewn about the floor.
Oh well. That's all.
Surrender to the baby's needs.