[Destonius]

100!!

[ThisGuy]

post her pics.

[Destonius]

How do I do that?
I just have photos in iPhoto.

[Stradlater]

Originally Posted by Destonius

Just erased all the e-mails related to her, but I'm keeping the photos in iPhoto.
We had some great times together and that has nothing to do with what has
happened in the end. What a cutie she was...

Pics, please.

http://photobucket.com/ <-- free photo hosting

[Destonius]

Hey, I finally figured it out!! Bottom two are in Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam last summer.
I love her skull shirt in the second photo. Man, I still love that girl...

[IMG] [/IMG] [IMG] [/IMG] [IMG] [/IMG]
[IMG] [/IMG]

[Luca Rescigno]

Originally Posted by Destonius

Is that her most common facial expression?

Naw, seriously man, I feel bad for you, getting in a fight over a girl like her... what a waste of energy.

[Destonius]

...I'm in pain...

It's like kicking the heroine addiction.
I've got to go through the pain until it's cleaned out of my body.
No escape. No exit. Taste the pain. I earned it.

Yeah, I was wrong as hell to have an affair with someone married.
I would've put her husband through all this pain.
I can't believe that she would go on with someone else though.

[Super Mario]

Originally Posted by Destonius

...I'm in pain....

In a few weeks you will look at those photos and see how ugly she is. Man she looks like a bulldog in a cheap sushi joint.

[Randman]

I don't know which is sadder. The faux macho act or the woe is my, I'm a slighted artist with a broken heart act.

Both sound fake as all get out.

[Super Mario]

Originally Posted by Randman

I don't know which is sadder. The faux macho act or the woe is my, I'm a slighted artist with a broken heart act.

Both sound fake as all get out.

Joe Romeo Pesci.

[Destonius]

LOL!! Bulldog. I can see that. Thanks for the input.
Funny how your taste goes out of the window when you are in love.
I still think she's a cutie though.

Why do you think I'm trolling? I know that I've made some unusual remarks and threads
before, but that doesn't mean that I'm trolling. Sh*t happens.
I'm just back to my normal self after a storm of rage and despair yesterday.
You know what it's like when you get dumped by a girl. (a guy)
If you know a magic formula that will let me pass the withdrawal period of relationships,
I would really appreciate it. It's meaningless and gets in the way of being here in the present.

Now, I just need to meet someone like GoGoYubari

[ASIMO]

Is that a bowl of pho? And chili.

Damn, I am hungry for some, now.

[Randman]

GoGo stabbed some dude to death right in the family jewels. You might deserve it but asking for it is something else.

The magic formula is go and meet other people. Non-married, non-attached other people. Some will be friends, some may be lovers, some may just be people you pass on the street.

Move on and quit thinking about the past. Maybe it'll help you grow up some (from your posts, you sound really young and inexperienced and immature).

[Randman]

Pho in Tokyo?

[Destonius]

Thanks for your advice.
I know that I was incredibly immature about what I did yesterday, but I'm never like that. Ever.
Part of me was objective and aware of the stupidity of my behaviour, but I just let the negative emotion carry me away. It won't happen again. Never.

I'll go out and do something tonight, but it's just so freakin' expensive to do anything here.
I'm just practicing my saxophone and playing with cats during the breaks today.
Worst thing I can do is to sit around doing nothing. That's death.
I'll probably play some Metal Gear Solid 3 later.

That pho was in Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam at the restaurant where Bill Clinton had some pho.
Man, that stuff is so good, but I made the mistake of rubbing my eyes with hands covered
with chilli, which burnt the hell out of my eyes, lips, mouth, etc. I couldn't stop crying for 15 minutes. Vietnamese food rulez!! Good stuff.

[Randman]

I've been to that restaurant in Saigon. There's better to be found but you're right about the pho.


Look at this way, you've already made progress, from ho to pho.

[demograph68]

It's good that you have acknowledged your mistakes and can now move on. I respect you for that. Good luck.

[Destonius]

Thanks a lot.

You've been to that restaurant too!? Whoa!!
What a small world. Maybe I'll meet my dream girl here.
It was hell crossing the streets in Saigon.
Another week would've made me a Green Beret.

Here's my longterm girlfriend.
[IMG] [/IMG]

[Randman]

Cute cat. Can't go wrong with a loving pet.

Yeah, I've been through Vietnam. Went about 18 months ago. Spent a few days in Saigon (loved crossing the streets, even have a cool video with all the bikes swarming around me. Had to cross it a couple of times, one for my then-g/f to get the shots from the sidewalk and back and forth with me pointing the camera at the bikes (at dusk).

After Saigon, went to Nha Trang for a couple of days, then headed up to Hanoi and and Halong Bay before returning to Saigon for the flight out.

Loved the restaurants, hated the constant begging (though it was understandable). Did you go to the rice cake restaurant?

[Destonius]

No, I didn't get to go to the rice cake restaurant. Just a bunch of cheap backpacker joints.

I was in Saigon for only a week and a half, travelling from Perth, Australia,
meeting up with my now EX-girlfriend shown above.
(That was a really romantic experience, I tell you. Just like a film. Sigh...)
I did all the regular touristy stuff, war museum, CuChi tunnel, Mekong delta, etc.,
around Saigon. And yes, I got to know all the boutiques really well thanks to my EX.
I then flew back to Perth to continue my Australian experience, heading out to the outback.
Bad news was that I was quite depressed at the time, so I can't say I got the full experience being there in Nam.

One of my travel plans I have now is to go down Vietnam from Hanoi to Saigon,
possibly flying to Angkor Wat and then southern Thailand.
Unfortunately, I won't be able to travel again for a while, but I'm really looking
forward to going back to Vietnam and SE Asia in general.

[Randman]

Southern Thailand isn't so hot right with all the violence going on. Been to Hat Yai but can't say it holds a match to BKK, Phuket or Samui.

But in your last post, you showed some hope. Remember the good times, let the bad times fade and move on. There's always adventure to be found and there's always people to meet.

[Destonius]

By southern Thailand, I meant to say Kho Thao, Samui, etc.

You are right. I have some great memories with her to cherish.
That was then, this is this. That's why I couldn't erase the photos.
I travelled in OZ and SE Asia for a year and just got back to Tokyo a week ago,
but I've already forgotten the great experience of travelling, it seems.

Yeah, there's so much to see and experience. So many places, so many types of food and
food poisoning, so many cute girls everywhere that have nothing to do with me.

I can't wait 'til I hit the road again. (eventually as a professional musician on world tour.)
I'm just upset that I'm confined to planet earth. Man, I would love to space travel.

Man, it still hurts and burns. Damn...
I'm not hardboiled enought to handle this pain, I suppose, but I'll survive.

It's time to listen to Frank Sinatra singing "My Way. "

[Destonius]

I'm going out for drinks with my mother in Shibuya.
(I can't drink much, but my mother loves to drink like a godzilla.)

Thanks so much for your advice and criticism.
I feel so stupid and selfish in hindsight to have meandered about my trivial problem,
but I guess some of you got some good laughs, so I guess it's justified.
You guys are the best!!

P.S. They are getting ready to open an Apple Store here in Shibuya in few months.

[Randman]

You're sure it's your mom and not someone else's? Don't fall into the same trap again.

[Zimphire]

Originally Posted by Bluesky

I haven't seen so many people jerked around by a pile of BS since Bush invaded Iraq.

Yeah Dan Rather really pulled a fast one didn't he.

[ThisGuy]

Originally Posted by Destonius

pix pix pix pix

revenge is a dish best served nude, if you catch my drift. wink wink nudge nudge.

[Destonius]

lol!! No, nudie goodie is just for me. They are hidden in the other user account iPhoto on my PB.
I hope to add to the personal collection in the future with other girls around the world.

I just need to get this desire to revenge against the girl.
I have this stupid idea of calling her home and tell her husband all about
her new BF with whom she is planning to marry in few years to immigrate to Thailand,
so that he'll go ape sh&t and get them off the guard, possibly resulting in a bloody fight and arrests. (and deportation for him) But, I now that it's none of my business now and I must not do anything that could hurt him.But, man, I can't get this idea out of my head.
Sake is making my head spin around and around...

[Randman]

So much for showing some progress.

[starman]

Billions of women in the world and you're upset over this one?

Mike

[Randman]

He's p-whipped. P-whipped over a cheating, married broad.

[Destonius]

Gimme a break. It's only second day being single.
I'm not powerpuff, you know.

No, I won't do anything about her. I'll just let it all go.
Too much stress even thinking about stupid evil plans.

Yeah, trillions of girls out there. It'll be nice to get hooked up with one like this.
[IMG] [/IMG]

(I've been posting photos since I first learned how to do it earlier today like
a chimpanzee that just learned to jerk off or something.)

[Randman]

Dude, you best stick with the beginner set. Don't think you can handle a real woman, judging from your posts.

[Destonius]

I'll be laughing at myself in few weeks for sure.
I'll be a pimpin', pho slappin' thug-meister.
Besides, I got to prepare for the job interviews,
practice music, play Metal Gear Solid 3, etc.
You know, the important stuff.

I've spend too much time abroad to have the skill to get Japanese chicks.
That's my next assignment : master the art of Japanese girl hunt.
They are some of the easiest girls in the world, according to the urban myth,
so that should be a fruitful study. (yeah, right)

Damn, I hope I don't get the hangover tomorrow.
Too much sake makes earth rotate faster than usual.

[Destonius]

Believe me, I got the skill to pay the bills. My record proves that just fine.
Girls ain't all that hard to handle. It's not like I'm looking for anything heavyduty anyway.
Having spend almost half of my life in the United States, my OS is virtually American,
so I have to learn the art of Japanese girl hunting now. They are like aliens for me,
especially the ones around here in Shibuya and Harajuku. I have nothing in common with them.

She was an exception to the rule. Like I said, I had no intention of getting involved
with her at all. It was supposed to be a one nighty, but then it blew up into a monster,
like Tetsuo from Akira. Scary stuff. I have no regrets though.

Besides, posts here don't really represent my character. I'm not a psycho.
I'll be fine and dandy soon. I hope...

[Randman]

Originally Posted by Destonius

She was an exception to the rule.

yeah, she's a three-timing married opportunist.

[Destonius]

Actually, she told my mother that she wants to get married at least
three times in her life. WTF!?

Man, I think I'm gonna p&k@...

[Randman]

Originally Posted by Destonius

Actually, she told my mother that she wants to get married at least
three times in her life.

Which means you have two more shots to date her.

Dude, seriously. She sounds like trouble and not worth the effort. Maybe if she looked like the model you posted. Move on already. She has.

[Destonius]

I'm moving on. Definitely. I'm just cleaning up the emotional garbage. That's all.
I still want to smack the guy inside out, but I got to let go now.

Hard lesson I learned is that you can't change the girl's mind once she decides to not love you anymore. The only thing you can do then is to let go and sail on with life.
(Easier said than done, but I've got to do it.)

I know that the moment I get hooked up with a new girl, I'll completely forget
everything about her. Name, age, nationality, gender, species, planet, galaxy, etc.
And since this is not Thailand, I don't have to worry about ladyboys.

[goMac]

Originally Posted by Destonius

Girls ain't all that hard to handle.

: chokes on Breakfast :

[Destonius]

No hangover!!
Time to hit the saxophone b/f negative emotions take over.
Taste the pain. Hah, hah!!

[Destonius]

I guess I can chill out with posting remarks now.
It's not a personal blog site and it's starting feel like I'm playing Tamagochi w/ myself.

Thanks so much for all the generous support and criticism.
You really helped me get over this experience.
You guys are the best!!

[UNTeMac]

Not really sure why I'm asking except I'm trying to figure out from your posts...

How old are you?

(and because I'm a sax player too, where'd you learn?)

[Destonius]

You guys probably think I'm 18 from these immature posts.
I just turned 30. Yup, 30. Yeah, go ahead and laugh. Hahaha.

Like I said, I went bananas this time, but half of it was a sort of dimented
experiment on stupidity and absurdity. I've been watching all these
gangstar movies lately and a week of abstinence away from the saxophone
really laid built a nulear bomb inside that was detonated by that chick.
I wasn't 100% bananas when I went to see the guy though. I was pissed off and all,
but I wasn't going to jeopardize the job interviews and stuff over nothing.
I just went over there to let out the steam, so that I can forget about it asap and
move on with life. I'm actually quite chilled out in real life, but these posts
portray someone with serious intellectual and emotional deficiencies. I know...

I went to The New School Jazz program in late 90's and studied with
George Garzone, Richie Beirach and many other great teachers.
I also studied with Dave Liebman privately and attended his masterclasses.
I still keep in touch with them once in a while. Wonderful teachers and friends.
Right now, I still suck pretty badly, but I'm getting my stuff together now.

[Destonius]

This is my tenor, Selmer Mark VI with custom work by Emilio Lyons in Boston
[IMG] [/IMG]
This is LED Mirage B4 Destonius from The Five Star Stories. Notice the skeleton armour influenced by candy colored iMacs of late 90's when this was designed.
[IMG] [/IMG]

[Randman]

Originally Posted by Destonius

You guys probably think I'm 18 from these immature posts.
I just turned 30. Yup, 30. Yeah, go ahead and laugh

[PB2K]

that robot has high heels, is he a dragqueen or something?

anyway, i guess you've heard all the advise to forget her and buy her flowers..and that's not what you want to hear right? To get your girlfriend back. just harrass the hell out of her !
the only way to convince her that you are made for her is to keep on calling her and fill her answering machine with threats/poetry/breathing and sound of loading firearms. if she changes number, that means you are reaching her. just try to get her new number by bribing her friends. Her friends and familiy can become powerful tools in your powergame. she will beg for you to come back when she is isolated and alone. JUST DONT GIVE UP, giving up is for losers !
justify your methods by the following sayings

who lasts wins
in love and war there are no rules !!

[Destonius]

LOL!!
No, I'll just drop the whole jive and move on. No girl is worth all the stress and work.
For that matter, nothing in life is worth the price of worries.
Happiness is everywhere all the time. I just have to chill out and be here now.
People who stalk really amaze me. That's a fulltime work. Jeez.
It's her loss anyway. Big freakin' deal.

Every brokenheart makes me more jaded to romance, but great for me.
I can't handle all that stormy torments. In a perfect world, I'll just meet a girl,
ask her first name and go to bed together. At this point, I don't care about
her 'unique' qualities and personal history. Yarn.
Wham, bam, thank you mam. That's my ideal. F@#k relationships.

I don't mean to sound sexist, but being a guy, my age really isn't a factor in relatioships,
so I'm not worried. I do need to get hooked up sometime soon though. Hmm...

That's just the design of robots in the graphic novel, like this one.
[IMG] [/IMG]

[buffalolee]

Your ex-girlfriend looks similar to GoGoYubari. Not as cute, but it is the hair that does it. When I first saw the picture, I thought I have seen that style before. I got some information which may help you sort out your thougths and feelings.

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5 Stages of Grief (or variation thereof): Shock - Denial - Guilt - Anger - Acceptance

Shock:
The numb time, when you can do everything or nothing. a dreamlike state, infused with suffering. Acting on instinct, automatic pilot, and ultimately not really believing that the loss is real.

Denial
This is the time when you most often say, this is not real, it�s all a bad dream. Many will come to the conclusion it�s all some conspiracy, that the person did not really die, they may even think they have seen them.

Guilt:
all the �shoulda, woulda, couldas� come to mind. If I would have done this, I should have said this, I could have changed things. Most of these feelings come from the unanswered Why, the why me?
Why am I alone?

Anger:
many times the anger will surface towards others, when the true fact is you feel you have been cheated, and your real anger is at the �supreme being� who planned all this death. Anger for some lasts longer if the death was caused violently, or a legal proceeding continues. There seems to be crying, depression and self punishment. Agony over unanswered questions and loneliness.

Acceptance:
Realization that you are alive, redefining, refocusing, setting new goals. This all occurs at a snails pace. Slowly but surely strength is found to deal with the hurts. Recovery is built a little at a time, and with the help of empathic people to encourage you when you grow discouraged or weary.
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Some good links:
http://www.harts.rrtstudios.com/AngelBlocks.htm
http://www.counselingforloss.com/article8.htm

[Destonius]

Thanks. That's really nice of you.
It really reminds me of Love is Hell by Matt Groening.

Thanks to you guys and my commitment to being as positive as possible,
I'm already in the final acceptance phase. I just wish that she came over for
the last taste of sin yesterday.

Thanks so much for all your advice. Never thought that my post number would
go three digits, but I guess I'm one of you now.

[turtle777]

Originally Posted by Destonius

You guys probably think I'm 18 from these immature posts.
I just turned 30. Yup, 30. Yeah, go ahead and laugh

Mwahahahahaha

Post of the month !

-t